hmm....first blog.....suddenly feel like writing one here Cause i dun wanna disturb wy and py too much....perhaps i juz wan somewhere to let me note down wats going on now.....perhaps i backtrack abit wats going on for the past few weeks
its been 1 mths plus since i met her at a fren's fren's bday bbq....to be exact 1 mth and 3 days....i still remember that day when i saw her i was enchanted by her cute smile...haha...lame me...abo lets call her "ke ai nu ren",when she smile her dimples show out very obviously, to me it is so sweet and cute, from that day onwards i kept on thinking about it...hehe.....
i wanted py to intro me to her but she told me have to wait for her bday tat day...sighz...sad...have to wait so long...its only the 16sept that day,and her bday is on the 10oct(which reminds me of someone's else bday,wat a coincidence),so depressing....wait wait wait........till 3rd oct night time gave py a msg asking any other way to get to know her....hmmm....didn noe that she'll tell me she got her number, wth why nvr tell me earlier?!!?!? anyway in the end, managed to get her number...yesh! Thanx py! frm then on we started to exchange sms...starting was awkward dunno wat to say, but slowly cant tok non stop hehe....her bday night i gave her a happy bday msg....but dunno how her reaction...was she smiling or maybe juz a "ok lor" kind of expression....haiz...i got her a smile dressing table frm precious thots for her together with a little keychain hidden inside the drawers with glowing stars inside so that at night it looks kinda nice,but dam...the stars dun glow for long....wth!anyway manage to resolve the prob with a little uv light taken out frm a pen tape it to the drawer and VOiLA!it glows!!!!yay!!!!then at the back of the mirror i tried to arrange out her initials...it looks vey nice in the dark....all this...for her....(will try to upload the pic next time).
On the 14th of oct, we went out for the first time together....haha sorry to say i couldnt really recognise her for the first time...until she smiled again...was kinda awkward,dunno wat to say, somemore i so nervous, totally tongue tied, its been sometime since i went out with a girl alone i really dunno how to react...though nothing much was said btn the two of us....but somehow i feel so happy juz seeing her ard, esp when she smiled...i was totally being held there in a mind blank thinking nothing....so sweet so cute....went to watch a movie "silk"....after that she had to rush off to meet her fren.....haiz...so sad...wo zhen de wish time was longer....acc her to somerset gave her the present den go off liao....end of story.....haiz....on the way back i couldnt stop thinking when i will get to see her again.....that night she went home late....a guy gave her a lift home....sadz.....she left my present on his car, wat a bummer!...afterall i am juz somone she juz knew, the present doesnt mean anything to her i guess....she apologised though....but i guess i was being jealous there thinking of the lucky person who can see her home....how much i wish i was the one.....haiz...guess i can only keep dreaming...3 plus in the morning he come back to rtn her my present...but think she went out again that night as she told me that she only slept on sunday morning when i msg her on sunday night....i was so freaking sad...but guess it didnt matter to anyone.....
Sunday was very bad day for me....i dunno wats wrong with me....i keep thinking abt her non stop, i tried to keep myself occupied....but couldnt stop the thoughts of her coming back.....AM I GOING CRAZY?!?!?!guess i screwed up last night when i message her...her replies all were one word replies....the replies all very cold one...like ya,yup,yes....ard 11plus she tell me she going sleep le.....she didnt even replied to my gd night msg at all...not even a one word nitez.....guess i muz have said something wrong which pissed her off i dunno.....maybe i too sensitive le ba....
i have so much to say to her...but i cant.....heres to her if she ever see it ba... but i guess she dont as she doesnt use her friendster much....
*wo you hen duo hua xiang gen ni shuo,wo hen xiang gao su ni wo shi dou mo de xiang nian zhe ni, wo kuai xiang dao fa feng le, dan shi wo bu neng, ying wei dui ni lai shuo wo men zhi shi peng you, di yi yen kan dao ni wo jiu yi jing xi huan shang ni le, dan wo bu neng gao su ni ying wei wo zhi dao yi shuo le, ni jiu hui gen san nian qian de ta yi yang li wo er qu le.....
