colours....i thought i'll nvr see again

u came in when my world was in grey.....

u gave it colour......

it was bright and beautiful just like a rainbow....

but then u left again......

my life once again faded to grey.......

i dunno u still read my blog anot......

i still miss u......but i dun wan to disturb ur flow....

so i'll just "disappear".......

SORRY

你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

爱情是一道伤口
ai qing shi yi dao shang kou
\
我们各自苦痛
wo men ge zi ku tong

沉默是我最後温柔
chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou

是因为我太爱你
shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

Why u so eager for me to forget?

why u will feel confused?

to begin....

To begin all over again.....izzit really that hard????

to be clinging onto the past....its painful.......

to forget wat was once beautiful and memorable........its hard.....

to be forced to hate......its cruel.......

frustrations......feels like an empty shell walking about when i am not busy....late at night always start to miss....the helplessness.....the feeling when u know u gonna lose something but cant do anything about it comes again.....很无奈.......can only clench my fist...and slowly let it pass by.....

wat should i do.....i feel so useless at this point of time......no one in my family or my friends noe wat happen......i didnt tell them anything......i cant talk to anyone about it.....

i walk alone.........once again.......


你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

one song.....

one songs describes it all.......

谢谢你如此温柔　
捧着爱情静静等候
我的双手　
其实同样在颤抖
但我能给你什么　
我只是一个他遗忘的我　
心被一扫而空
我会把你种在我心中　
也许某天
会终于再次长出一个梦
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心
那爱情的绮丽　
总是在孤单里　
再把我的最好的爱给你
谢谢你如此温柔　
点着笑容的灯火　
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走　
才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我　
我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于再次长出一个梦
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里　
再把我的最好的爱给你
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心
明明是想靠近　
却孤单到黎明
不知道 不明了 不想要
为什么 我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你
谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火　
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走　
才所以不能答应你陪我　
怕你会变成我


你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

one song...will do...describe it all....

but i doubt u'll understand

as u dun understand chinese well

blanko blanko mind.....

compiling memories nowadays..............will not blog much........doing my own preparation.......

hoping for better days but hard......its gonna be hard from here on..............

你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

WHY ONLY ME?!?!?!?

unlucky!!!
Originally uploaded by guang u

OF ALL THINGS....WHY ONLY BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO ME?!!?!?!?!??AINT THINGS BAD ENOUGH NOW?!?!?!?OH WOAH!!!SO GUESS NEXT I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL OF ACCIDENTS.......FUCK THIS WORLD!!!!! FUCK THE PERSON WHO KNOCKED MY BIKE DOWN!!I HOPE U ACCIDENT SOON YOURSELF!!!!

你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

time

everyone has been telling me......time will heal itself.....but wat they do not know...sometimes...time will only make the missing more deep....

时间会冲淡一切，
但有时，
时间只会让思念更加深刻

time...has a different effect to different ppl.......

time sometime really help ppl to forget......it sometimes help to prove ppl wrong.....it sometimes allow both ppl to understand more of each other.....but yet sometimes short enough to prove someone the decision wrong...it doesnt stop for u....neither it moves for u.....i keeps going with a agenda of its own.....
to let you know.....life is ticking away......cherish it with all u have......live to the fullest....live with no regrets, hate, sorrow......

but yet...ppl still seem to be this way...regretting had i done this would this have happen.....hating the person who oppose u at work, study or maybe in ur daily life.......sorrowing at the love or closed one that left you.....

it a very sneaky fellow.....it passes very slow when u are counting it....but the moment u stop counting the time, it just seem to run past u very fast.......

so.....how is time to you???

getting happier day by day???to some ppl like a few of my friends they are.....

getting sadder????a friend of mine just broke off with her bf of 3 yrs.......

or perhaps one day realised that without that person beside you......u feel something is missing and no one can replace that missing part???
only to realise its importance after u have lost it..........

http://www.samuelgoh.net/love/ai_ni_shi_ge_cuo_v1_v1.htm <-- For you.....

你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

Rain....

RAIN.....after so long it finally rained today.....felt as if its crying with me......my mind is totally filled up with memories of her still....the time we spent together....the time she knock my helmet while riding....the time we would take walks at labrador.....how she would use to tickle me....our first movie together which i still keep the stubs.....the night at the penjuru reservoir where she finally said "i love you"to me.........

i guess those are gone....its just short story.....ended...so sharply and suddenly.....i tried to stop it....but thats only how much i can do....the pair of hands...one finally decided to stop clapping.....the two sets of footprints in the sand...now back to just one...mine alone again.....

wanted to give her a little surprise for v'day today cause knowing i cant see her on this sat.....but i guess i cant do that anymore....guess i'll just keep wat i bought for her infinitely.....

i cant keep her company at work anymore.....we used to chat the whole day till she finish work worrying she find time slow......i really miss the time every morning looking forward to checking my hp or email for her messages......but now my phone doesnt ring anymore in the morning.....its silent......

i really miss her........

i really do........

no one can help..........

no one........



你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

definition....

i once told a fren...if the frenship is easy to get, it will be easy to be broken also, nothing is easy is this world....i forgot....i totally forgot......it applies in relationship as well.....if a chance is easily given, it will also be easily ended....swift and decisive.....and normally once this chance is gone.....one must understand it will be almost impossible for one to get it again....thats why we are taught to grab every chance with all ur might when it appears not knowing will this be the one and only chance OR will it ever come again....den u try to cherish it..only to know it will leave eventually sooner or later because this chance landed wrongly.....but think carefully...theres no wrong or right chance....its given with all possibilities of good or bad outcome....its how u make use of this chance to make sure its a good outcome....but not all things will go your way...

not all things.....somethings.....u can nvr change the way it is..........



你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

the 83 days u were in my life has been the greatest since 03....thank you...u let me forgotten some sad things...and at the same time given me new memories....if to give up so easily will only prove that i am just treating this half heartedly...u have to know...when the whole world turns its back on u...there will always be someone here waiting to give u everything he has....u cant cast him away for he is not solid in shape....he's like air always around u nvr forgetting....

white lies....

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白
办不到的承诺 就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱他
笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我才终于明白
办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她
我不爱他笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心 早已掏空
真心话 言不由衷
请告诉她 我不爱他
笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口就让沉默
代替所有回答
别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默 代替所有回答



你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

nothing left.....

in the end....all is left is nothing........

broken once again.......

going into seclusion........








你终于还是离开了我的身边，跟你的每个回忆我会好好收藏的：我爱你

love, money?!?!......wat is it???

this has been on my mind for some time....alot of things happen recently......think i'll blog it out tonight......

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some ppl have a love who they dun cherish,
some ppl have two loves and wan the best of both worlds,
some ppl is forever looking for love
some ppl has found their love and being loved back......

the one who have love.......dun see the effort made by the one loving....thus leaving both parties in a very strained emotion of arguments......when one is too eager to impress the other

the one who have two loves......has the person ever thought wat if one day one of them decides enough is enough and decided to talk to the other party about it...all hell will break loose....leaving a couple with no trust at all....and a very sad third party to suffer alone for the person has given the time and life for this love that will not have a perfect ending

the one who forever looking for love.......always trying for a chance with love but in the end always being left alone over and over again......wat if one day they find the person to be in love with...will it last?will it be hard???or will it lead to happiness.......no one knows.....ONLY TIME WILL TELL.....

the one who found love and being loved back........happiness????(^_^)

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i've been told often......money is not everything.....but without money u cant get anything......

who says money cant buy back a life.....ur love one on the life support.....u have no money to foot the medical bills anymore......pull the cord and lose the love one....dun pull and cont to work hard for money to support the bills keeping the person alive.........

who says money cant buy a family back....the kind father who borrows from illegal money lender for he realise that his current job is not enough to support the whole family,wife leaves with kids thinking the husband is a gambler addict borrowing from the illegal.....had he been rich...none of this would have happen.....

who says money cant buy u time......the boss who hires ppl to work for him....each of them sacrifice their 8 hrs for him leaving him more time to go settle other issues......u have money to own a personal transport....saved will be the time from waiting for public buses, trains, taxis.....saved will be the traveling time....given 15mins per day.....one year u save 5340 mins~!now who says money cant buy time?

i can see money has already a big place in the world now affecting alot of decision....can say it isnt everything....but is also almost everything ......

Guang yu

as i was speaking to you in msn i was typing this post.....alot of mixed emotions....sad, happy, fear....my mind is blank for the both of us.....the conversation whole night has risen alot of questions in me....i fear that day to come i hope it never come......i happy u given me a chance......i sad i still cant be what u wan right now........i just wish everything now to go well....giving u the best of everything i promised u i am still trying....i thank u be so understanding to me......-->love from me to you<--guang yu