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Beyond Words

i guess....this will be the last time i am posting under this catergory liao....too sad to be saying anything....i guess wat i wrote in my previous post really made her misunderstood wat i am trying to say...thus making her hate me so much le....i guess no matter how much i explain to her she won listen liao....think i just topped her list in the "I HATE YOU" catergory liao....

I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY.....WAT I WROTE IN MY PREVIOUS POST THE FIRST FEW LINES I REALLY DIDNT MEAN IT.....THE MEANING IN MY BLOG I ALREADY TOLD U IN THE SMSES LIAO....I ONLY WANTED YOU TO KNOW THE OVERWHELMING FEELINGS THAT I HAD FOR YOU WHICH I HAD NO PLACE TO PLACE UPON ON.....I CAN ONLY VENT IT OUT ON MY BLOG...I ALWAYS THOUGHT U'LL NVR READ MY BLOG....BUT I FINALLY KNOW THAT U DO....IN THE HARDEST WAY.....I FEEL SO AIMLESS NOW WITHOUT U....EVEN TALKING LIKE A FOOL HERE SPROUTING NONSENSE...BUT I DUN CARE LIAO....I ONLY WAN U TO UNDERSTAND WAT I AM TRYING TO SAY HERE.....THE HATE IS ONLY VERBAL IT DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING.....BUT THE LOVE IS TRUE STILL...I WILL GO TO ANYWHERE TO U NO MATTER WAT TIME, WAT PLACE...I NVR ASK WHERE U BEEN WHY U THERE EVEN THOUGH I KNOW ITS SOMEPLACE I DUN LIKE....THE WEDNESDAYS WHERE I WAN TO PICK U I EVEN SACRIFICE MY TIME TO GO BBALL WITH MY FRIENDS WHOM I PROMISED THOSE TWO NIGHTS...ALL BECAUSE I PROMISED U...THAT I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS, THIS IS THE PROMISE WHICH I GAVE TO U, ONLY U AND NO ONE ELSE.....I JUST WANNA LET U KNOW....I AM STILL HERE, HERE RIGHT WHERE I AM....

but i guess i screwed up already....just like i did 5 yrs back....the only difference is this time i knew wat happened compared to sara's....but also this time the impact is surely harder than the last....she even deleted me from friendster le.....i guess its all over liao....

Too depressed......



Too empty.....



perhaps.....perhaps....goodbye world.....take care my friends......



signed,

Guang yu.......





试着让身边很吵闹
好好想念你的怀抱
某一秒我竟微笑
体会你扬起的嘴角
悲伤的呼唤
也许在跟自己比较
让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少
然而你还是最美好
要让你知道
做得到
不管相爱总会有一些低潮
我爱你
就应该对你越来越好
现在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看着你笑我也笑
别自寻烦恼
做得到
你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的
每一个承诺会说到做到
感谢你坚强勇敢
让我很骄傲
你所想要的爱我能做得到
也许在跟自己比较
让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少
然而你还是最美好
要让你知道
做得到
不管相爱总会有一些低潮
我爱你
就应该对你越来越好
现在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看着你笑我也笑
别自寻烦恼
做得到
你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的
每一个承诺会说到做到
感谢你坚强勇敢
让我很骄傲
你所想要的爱我能做得到
原谅我内心交战让你好难过
我能给你的爱没有做不到

I AM SO CONFUSED!!!!

I HATE U!!!

I FUCKING HATE U!!!

I SOMEHOW REALLY FEEL LIKE I AM BEING TAKEN FOR GRANTED......

DO U ONLY THINK ABOUT ME WHEN U NEED ME???

OR AM I JUST A SUCKER CLINGING ONTO U STUBBORNLY????

PERHAPS NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DO, IT DOESNT SEEM ANYTHING SIGNIFICANT TO YOU!!

I AM JUST WASTING MY TIME!!!

ARGH!!!!!SO MUCH I WANNA PUT IN WORDS BUT DUNNO HOW !!!!!!

ALL I WANTED WAS TO ASK OF U TO TURN ARD AND LOOK AT ME!!!!BUT U NEVER, U NEVER WILL DO THAT!!!!!!

PLS!!IF I AM JUST A TOOL TO U, STOP DOING IT.

CAUSE THE REASON THAT I COME FOR U IS BECAUSE I LOVE U, AND NOT BECAUSE I AM STUPID!

HEY GIRL....I VERY TIRED LIAO.....I REALLY BREAKING DOWN LIAO.......SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP....BUT SO COINCIDENTALLY EVERYTIME I MADE UP MY MIND, THERE COMES UR SMS ASKING FOR MY HELP....AND MY HEART SOFTENS AGAIN....I NVR HAD FELT THIS WAY, AND I HOPE U ARE NOT TOO BLIND TO SEE OF MY CONCERN AND CARE FOR U IS JUST AS MUCH AS THE PPL WHO U ONLY SPEAK OF......